Hello, World

Well it's taken me long enough but I finally setup pelican on my MacBook. The number of blogs I've attempted to create over the years is probably in the teens by now. None of which have been particularly successful, and by that I mean updated regularly. That might have something to do with the fact I'm not very good at writing which might have something to do with the fact that I don't write very much. Here's another attempt at breaking that cycle.

It took me a good 15 minutes just to write that first paragraph...

Anyway, this post is mostly a starting point for getting a better feel of how pelican works and how I want this blog to look. The other bits I don't have fleshed out yet are where to host this, how to store it, and what topics to cover. I guess I'm somewhat of a perfectionist in my mind so dwelling on those things until they're right will only get me to where I currently am, nowhere.

What do I want (or what do I hope to get out writing more)?

  • Become a better writer.
  • Become a better programmer.
  • Become less self defeating.
  • Be honest with myself.

I have a bad habit of saying I have a bad habit of something. One of those bad habits being that I'm not very confident in myself. Not entirely sure if this is considered imposter syndrome or if I really think I know nothing.

One thing I am sure of however is that this way of thinking has stunted my intellectual growth and harmed my career. Deliberately avoiding technical discussion with my peers and my best friends or not contributing in public dialog (twitter, forums, etc...) with my thoughts and opinions because I'm afraid of what other might say has not gotten me very far. This might partly come from when I got my first computer and started messing around with Linux many years ago. It was generally frowned upon in the community to ask questions without first reading the fucking manual.

There is this voice in the back of my head that says if you don't know EVERYTHING about a certain subject then you have no authority to write about it or participate in public dialog about it. Silly, huh?

Somehow I've written more than I anticipated. Think it's time to wrap this one up.

My best friend encouraged me to setup a new blog and to just write so that's what I'm doing. Here's to more learning, more participation and renewed interest in computing.